Holiday season is here, but i am not excited even if my birthday would come first. Yup i will be turning 33 this dec. 15, but i duno if anyone would believe i never really looked forward to celebrating it as well. Something traumatic happened on one of my birthday celebration, a friend of mine accidentally let my dogs out, and to make the story short, one of them got hit by a car. I was there, i saw it, and when that happened, i ran over to and carried her, laid her in our garage and did everything i could to revive her but she eventually died. That day did left an ugly scar on my memory.
I would feel better to celebrate my birthdays and the holiday season if i am sure or certain of my kids future. I can never afford to spend something for myself because i know i should be saving up for them... but then again, perhaps i am forgetting this, CHRISTMAS AND NEW YEAR is a great time to celebrate with my kids, it will be 2012 next year and i should have a better if not, a more positive outlook in life... yeah, forget my birthday, and for my kids sake, wish we all could have merry christmas and a happy new year!!!