Crazyazzcatman

More about me:

I have held on to the prize that we are all looking for...that significant other who loves you more than you think is possible. And you couldn't possibly love anything or anyone any more than you do. I was lucky enough to be able to hold on to that for 24 years! Then she was ripped from my heart, thoughts, hands and life by Cervical cancer. I was devastated and depressed for 5 years at least. I experienced fun exciting moments with other females who were in and out of my life after finishing their imperative mission was completed . Some people aren't meant to be in your life but for a short period of time. Then most recently I had the pleasure of loving a covert narcissist. I like most have heard descriptions like that theown arou d but really had no idea what it meant. We even married for a few years. Unfortunately i wasn't prepared for her. She self sabatoged our relationship time and time again. It just saddens me because it was her subconscious taking over in an attempt to protect her from being in another abusive relationship. Bare in mind that she betrayed me on more than one occurrence which still hurts. So I believe I am being a bigger man by how I explained that. But that's my opinion.
That is the best way I can explain it being a layman. But I'm ready to dive back into that giant ocean of love once again. And sail onto the twilight.